Leviathan
Poetry
The stage opens in red light
You lean in with intent
Enshrouded by the eager, wanting eyes of many
You descend
Angel like
I watch as the act begins
A thesis laid bare, unspooling before my eyes
You begin threading the needle
You dance, a weaver of flesh
Waning through movements as a maxim unfurling
Unfaltering
And you, my retainer of the finite worth
Fail this balancing act
By the sleight of your fingertips
You come to collapse
Shattering spiraling bones
Failure paid in the price of blood
A promise uncoiled by fatal refute
A white scar wristed bare
A desperate performance
An easy way out
I fall unfurl into myself
The Leviathan
Distention
Are the birds in the evening sky arranging themselves into order
Are they obeying a greater law
Do they yield not to entropy, careening down the ladder of chaotic systems
Do they give me a sign
If only they give me an end to disorder
When my skull distends and cracks open
and all the sour blood spills out
of regret and regret and regret and guilt like fire of a sun cycling beyond the death of every singularity until the end of time
Will a little bird drink of my thoughts
Will the disease spread across a thousand tiny wings
A metapathology for the crows to feed
A silent beckoning for control will call to them
To find form as a lattice of scattered neurons
My voice will recombine from them
As a composite of the greater whole
They will fall into a Godspeed form
To give that first iteration of me a final warning
“This will all fall into place”
Lyrical Writings
Ibis
And so I take the lower emphasis
I take it upon myself
I take my life from within my veins
I yet refuse death
A mendicant gesture unending
Drawing from the tainted well, only blood
Only blood and rot that writhe inside
It runs
Blood deep
I take the mendicant gesture
Of draining it myself
For as long as I live
An ill will under the skin
The limit imposes
The mendicant beg
The emphasis lowers
I’m going to do it
Proof runs
Blood deep
Prophet
Prophet, o mine
In address to this wager
I come empty-handed
In the absence of jest
Abstaining from all proof
I come to you empty-handed
Prophet, o mine
They sent
Nascent blood
They’ve sinned
Infinite times
Prophet, I abstain from your decay
You are only ill will
A poison in my spine
You cripple me
And watch me die
Only then do I run out of time
I come to you in desperation
To curl away from punishment
Trembling away from agony
Neither empirically nor logically
Only in fear
Accosted at your feet
And if there is god in you
Ever primal wild thing
And if there is god in you
Much of my writing trends toward the traditionally darker corners of the human condition, often dealing in existentialism, metaphysics, death, and the absurd, drawing on the doctrine of Kierkegaard, the grotesqueness of Bataille, and aspects of Gothic literature.
A Most Exquisite Corpse
I was cut up today
They winnowed me down
You looked at the new, so mangled thing
I was so divine
You cried and cried and cried
I cried alongside you
And I am winnowed down now
A nascent being thing
Exquisite
Composite
I want to die
To come anew like this
Uncocooned
The novelty of pink flesh born too soon
And I am divine
A most exquisite corpse
Perhaps I’m only yours to bury now